Monday, February 15, 2016

Finding Myself - A Poem.

Finding Myself.

Like well-worn armor, I clung to blame, bitterness and the unfairness
of it all.
I was a victim, a martyr. I was crazy.
My soul corrupt.
My heart a den of misery.
In the depth of darkness and a living nightmare, drowning under the
weight of grief and despair, I threw off the armor.
I let go; I stopped fighting.
I floated in the swirling currents and I survived.
I let down my walls and let myself out of my self-imposed prison.
I forgave myself.
I forgave my tormentors.
I am my greatest enemy and my worst critic.
I am the one who chooses to be wretched and bitter.
I allowed negativity to stay and maligned all that I loved.
I am lucky that from misery I found myself again.
I opened myself up to love and happiness
And it is appreciation and grace that now guides my heart.
It is happiness and joy that now lights my way!

Love is my faith; It is my new religion!

By Kathy Pate

Monday, September 21, 2015

September Salute - Busch Gardens

Busch Gardens - Sea World September Salute!

There are only 9 days left for this oppurtunity but I would recommend take a day and go!!

We had an awesome time wandering the park and experiencing the animals! 
we also did a lot of people watching it our favorite sport!

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

The Learning Curve!

I have taken on a huge responsibility. I have had this blog for years and barely keep it updated so what makes me think that I can keep up with 2 websites 2 additional facebook pages and a new twitter account even astounds me. I think what will keep me going is the passion for the subject matter.

I have launched 2 websites with corresponding social media apps.              with facebook     SLC911PST-Facebook

and        with facebook    E911Dispatch - Facebook

and twitter      PSE911Dispatch - Twitter

I am really excited and the past 3 weeks have been a challenge but I love being a 911 Dispatcher and this is my way of helping the people and profession I love best. My goal is to post and write as much as I can about current and past issues related to my job and try to keep up with my personal Blog.

Yes huge challenge but I think I am up to it.

Wish me luck!!

Saturday, September 05, 2015

Mango Madness

Mango season is over......Its been over at least in my yard but at the top of this huge tree is one last Mango. I see it every day. It is taunting me. It is ripe and ready to eat and I have waited patiently for it to fall but so far no luck.

Today my hubby backed up our truck to this tree and it still wasn't high enough to reach. We added a ladder to the back and it was high enough but our poor picker was not study enough to pull it from the branch it is clinging to. It is still sitting up there watching me and teasing me driving me crazy.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Water Barrell

I found a couple south of us who have very similar goals as we do. They have chickens and a garden and are trying to eat fresh and buy local. They make water collection barrells and Aquoponics barrells. I purched one of there water barrells and set it up the other day and of course since then we have had no rain to speak of. Today it sprinkled a little but not enough to even cover the bottom of the barrell.

Next week I pick up my Aquapomics barrells. I can't wait!!

Saturday, June 28, 2014

St Augustine 2007

I haven't blogged in a while so I decided to post a few pictures I've taken over the years. Enjoy!

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Happy 24th Anniversary!

Even as I approach my late middle age and try to act mature and wise, I know that I am very childish when it comes to truth and fairness. My husband has told me often that life is not fair and I know this but the little girl in me cries every time she witnesses an injustice and has to swallow the fact that people she looks up to are only human and often fall prey to lies, laziness, greed and politics. I often wonder what happened to the good guys? I know they are out there because I married one 24 years ago. He saved my life. He is my hero!

I find it upsetting that we have struggled all our married life to be honest and open with each other and have tried to impart the same morals of truth and honesty to our children. We have failed often as parents and partners but we are human. Thankfully, God gave us forgiveness and the intelligence to learn from our mistakes. As we have watched our children grow into maturity, we know that we have not failed to pass along the values and morals that our parents imparted to us. We have taught them that hard work and integrity are important but as I watch them enter the work place I wonder if we were wrong and have sadly misguided our children by teaching them a fairy tale.

Thankfully my husband kept very little from our children. I tried to protect them from the world but he came home everyday and told them about what he did and the things that went on in the street. He told them the stories of death and life and the good and the bad. He taught them reality but he also taught them to put themselves out there and help when they could. My hero frequently reached his hand out to help people and he has made a difference even if it was only for a brief period of time. Even when he failed or when a person did not understand the concept of friendship, it did not stop him. He still puts himself out there and tries to make a difference and I proudly watch my children try to do the same.   

Our children have celebrated with us our success and suffered through our failures and we have survived each conflict stronger than we were before. I am so thankful that God blessed me with a partner who was strong enough to accept me with all my baggage, tolerate my stubbornness and having the tenacity to stay even when we were at our lowest. I know they say love is blind but my eyes are wide open and I love this man more than ever. I would not change a thing about him nor do I regret one moment that I have spent with him.

No matter what happens in life from this day forward, you have always been and will always be my hero!

Happy Anniversary! I love you!