Even as I approach my late
middle age and try to act mature and wise, I know that I am very
childish when it comes to truth and fairness. My husband has told me
often that life is not fair and I know this but the little girl in me
cries every time she witnesses an injustice and has to swallow the
fact that people she looks up to are only human and often fall prey
to lies, laziness, greed and politics. I often wonder what happened
to the good guys? I know they are out there because I married one 24
years ago. He saved my life. He is my hero!
I find it upsetting that we have
struggled all our married life to be honest and open with each other
and have tried to impart the same morals of truth and honesty to our
children. We have failed often as parents and partners but we are
human. Thankfully, God gave us forgiveness and the intelligence to learn from
our mistakes. As we have watched our children grow into maturity, we
know that we have not failed to pass along the values and morals
that our parents imparted to us. We have taught them that hard work
and integrity are important but as I watch them enter the work place
I wonder if we were wrong and have sadly misguided our children by
teaching them a fairy tale.
Thankfully my husband kept very little from our children. I tried to protect them from the world but
he came home everyday and told them about what he did and the things
that went on in the street. He told them the stories of death and
life and the good and the bad. He taught them reality but he also taught them to put themselves out
there and help when they could. My hero frequently reached his hand
out to help people and he has made a difference even if it
was only for a brief period of time. Even when he failed or when a
person did not understand the concept of friendship, it did not stop him. He still puts
himself out there and tries to make a difference and I proudly watch my children try to do the same.
Our children have celebrated with us our
success and suffered through our failures and we have survived each
conflict stronger than we were before. I am so thankful that God
blessed me with a partner who was strong enough to accept me with all
my baggage, tolerate my stubbornness and having the tenacity to stay
even when we were at our lowest. I know they say love is blind but my eyes are
wide open and I love this man more than ever. I would not change a thing
about him nor
do I regret one moment that I have spent with him.
No
matter what happens in life from this day forward, you have always
been and will always be my hero!
Happy Anniversary! I love you!
